Sunday, February 19, 2012

A few thoughts

My boys like to watch home videos of themselves. Cooper has always loved this and now Cameron is getting into it as well. We watched a few from this past Spring and Summer but the ones that got me the most were from Summer and Fall of 2010. These was one video in particular of Cooper, it was a couple weeks before he got his tonsils taken out and about 6 months into his speech therapy. There was one part where I couldn't understand a word he was saying. He even asked us what he had just said. A few scenes later it is a couple weeks after surgery and man alive it's perfectly clear.
Then there are those videos of Cameron. I think he needs a do-over. It was so easy to get caught up in the frustration of a baby who cries all the time, looking back he deserves better. I can throw a pity party for myself all I want but the bottom line is he didn't deserve to be in pain all the time. I just want to go back and take it all away from him.

3 comments:

ginmommy said...

Poor Cooper and Cameron. I understand tho, when Pierce cried all the time, i just wanted it over. It's hard to enjoy that.

Jaime Mac said...

Don't beat yourself up you were busy trying to help him feel better! You're a great mom! Just because he doesn't have as many videos doesn't change that ONE.BIT!!!!

The McAfee's said...

Don't beat yourself up! There are things we would all change!