Thursday, March 31, 2011

Reflecting

I was doing some reflecting today of when Cooper was around Cameron's age. At times I feel like a big chunk of his infant stage is missing. I went back to work when we was 11 weeks and left to stay home when he almost 7 months. I don't remember a lot of those months. By the time we all got home in the evenings we had less than two hours before bed. I still can't comprehend how working moms get it all done. I'm anxious just thinking about it. I know some people like to talk about how hard stay at home moms have it. I've done both and there is no way I would go back. We've given up a lot for me to do this. We haven't had a vacation since before I got pregnant with Cooper, over 4 years. I still wouldn't trade it. I gave my former employer a 6 weeks notice because someone was getting married and going on vacation for two weeks. Those last few weeks I was counting down the days and when I walked out the door I felt the biggest sigh of relief. It was one of the happiest days ever. I am having the same feelings now. Next Thursday is tubes day. I can't tell you how excited I am. Since Cameron's ears have been clear and he isn't on antibiotics right now, I have a different kid. He is so happy and playful. Sometimes I think his smile is too big for his face. For the longest time I really thought my child didn't enjoy life. If it wasn't colic symptoms it was a cold or an ear infection, 10 days of antibiotics, a good week or two, then we would start all over. For all I know these infections could be gone without tubes but this is going to give me peace of mind. I feel like a huge dark cloud is lifting. He was so fussy at times I felt terrible to leave Steve with both kids to do anything on my own or with friends. I honestly don't think I have done anything with friends, without taking one of my children, since before he was born. I finally feel like I can do this and things will be okay at home. First on my list is a date night with my husband. We haven't went out either. It feels like these months have went by so fast but when you say it out loud, 7 months is a long time. Plus Spring is coming and both of my kids love to be outside. Cameron will sit on a blanket and play for an hour just watching Cooper run around. This is fun coincidence. My last day of work was June 13, 6 days before Cooper turned 7 months. Cameron is getting his tubes on April 7, 6 days before he turns 7 months. Cool, huh? God Bless you if you sat through all this. Those that did, here are some fun pictures of my kids playing, or maybe wrestling. You choose.

4 comments:

ginmommy said...

Well, I sat through it all :-) I'm so happy for you. I honestly, have been so worried for you guys, but I ALWAYS felt like something was wrong for Cameron to cry so much. You know I had a fussy baby like that too, and it's so hard. This will all be a memory one day.

Susie said...

Glad to see Cameron pain is coming to and end.You can see how much those boys loves each other.

The McAfee's said...

I am so glad the tubes are so near!! It's been a long winter for most, I think.

Jaime Mac said...

I read it all! I'm glad Cooper is starting to act like a 'normal' kid! Fingers crossed!
I'm also glad you don't regret your decision to leave work & stay home. If you're happy where you're at-that's all that matters! :)